Wednesday 2 November 2011

Toodles for now

"I'm starting to learn things bwt myself that I ddnt even realise r beautiful....I'm starting to learn that my flaws r human...I'm starting to accpet myslf and loving it" - Anelisiwe Miza

I started this blog beginning of the year to try and deal with life and the world after my father's passing because with it came a whole new confusion of what that is and where i fit in that life and world.

Today, I am nowhere near finishing my grieving for my loss, the hole its created is still as wide as the seven seas but now Im starting to restore myself and my position in life. Its been one hell of a road and Im nowhere near finish. With every new day, is one new blessing and two more downfalls but when you choose life and purpose you realise you can change the world by changing yourself.

Ive lived this year through this blog but now I need to live it with the world. And although this is toodles for now maybe sometime later I can come tell you how becoming my purpose feels like.

To everyone, I hope you figure yourselves out and even if you dont, love yourself dearly, love yourself enough to fight for yourself......

Before i say bye, i think it would be fun to tell you where the signature "Everything is Everything" comes from and no its not from Lauryn Hill's song though it has been one of my favourites.... I once met a guy who at the time I thought was the coolest person on earth and he had sent me one of those charming smsz that make you laugh and giggle on your own of which he had told me I would do. Anyway he had ended that sms by saying I hope everything is everything and for once since ive heard that clause did it really make sense to me and meaning for me and although i couldnt explain it...everything was definitly everything....

To my beautiful family (Nokwanda Miza, Aliziwe Miza, Nzolo Miza, Mila Miza and the Late Gugulethu Miza), my loving boyfriend Joni Ranton and our extended family, thank you for the amazing love and support you continue to allow me to grow in.

  Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Prov 4:23

"Hope is a state of mind, not of the world. Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good."
-Vaclav Havel

EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING